It's a journey

The other day after I had wrote about perfect love, I began reflecting on my life and I came to the conclusion that I am unqualified to write about something such as perfect love, for in myself, I don't know how to love completely or perfectly.

I desire to love unconditionally, I desire to love with a perfect love. But I am not there yet.

I know it's a journey, and it begins with allowing God to be sovereign in my life. It begins with me recognizing that He knows all, and He is in control. It begins with me realizing that the pain I'm in now, is not forever, and He is not far, but He is near. It begins with me allowing Him to love me, and allowing Him to heal the scars all over my heart. It begins with me taking a step off the cliff, and trusting Him, knowing full well, He is sovereign. It starts with me being a child, and trusting that in this time, it may be painful, but the end result is good.

Romans 8:28, "And we know that in all things God works together for the good of those who love Him, who are called according to His purpose."

And God showed me that though I'm not there yet, I'm not unqualified. Each of us has been called and chosen for such a time as this, and if we think we are unqualified for speaking out, for being apart of something then we missing that calling. Because it is a journey. It starts with one baby step towards Him.

An example of this would be tonight. For the past 8 months, I have had a small little outreach program with the teens in our church, and really anyone who wants to be involved. It's interesting to see what happens when you ask teens to come pick up garbage, or shovel sidewalks in -40 C weather, or go take bag lunches to people in the city. Truthfully it's awesome, because generally a group of teens show up, and that group of teens leave happy and excited. I never though I'd be cut out for something such as leading a group of teens to do some crazy things. Well getting back to my story, tonight, I spoke with a lady who is well-connected into our town's political system. She works with the kids who have "problems" and are doing community service. She said she was shocked at the response after telling these kids what they can do instead of fooling around. The hardest kid of them all said, "Why don't you show us how to do this?" So we have decided to come together. I will be the second adult that she needs at her meetings, and build relationships wih these kids, and then in return we can go out and show the town the love of God. Both of these "ministries" have started out small, a tiny step that an unqualified person took. And when I hear where the town is wanting this to go, it's no small thing. It's something beyond my imagination. Though I probably won't see it to fruitiation. The obedience to take the first step towards it is.

Forget that you are unqualified and walk in what He has called you to walk in! He has made you qualified!