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I am sitting here staring at my acceptance letter and revisiting memories of two years ago in January. Exact same position, so excited to be going to college. *laughs* Oh how God changes things. Or should I say "Oh how often I put my fingers in my ear to not hear God?"

2 years ago in January, I got my acceptance letter to the community college near us. Let me tell you I was excited. *chuckles* Until March when I went to Los Angeles with my high school class, and both my principal and teacher suggested that I look into being apart of the kids ministry there. I was tore up because my plan was set so perfectly, I was so ready to go and do what "God told me to." Looking back I realize I didn't pray about it. I just went for it, it seemed right and I wanted an education, I wanted to be the different one in my family, and I wasn't settling for less. So I pursued that. But then God shook my world up. And I allowed Him to. And seriously, going to Los Angeles was so great. I learned so much. I could go on for hours about that year long trip.

*smiles* You'd think I would have learned my lesson the first time. Seek God on the in every situation, ask Him for direction, go where He wills. But I didn't. October of last year, I was determined to go to a small Bible School that my friend had gone to. She loved it, and I was ready to go as well. My job would work well with it, everything was perfect. UNTIL beginning of June. My youth pastor suggested I call the school and find out more about the first year school. I know I know, I left my schooling for like almost last minute. But I knew with this school, I didn't have to apply months in advance, I could pay with cash and all was good to go. But after calling them and finding out a series of things, I realized it was time to start praying. Yes, 9 months later I started praying. As I prayed I began to realize that wasn't the right choice but rather this other college was where I felt God leading me. So here I am today, praying I've learned my lesson and that next time there's a decision, I pray FIRST and follow Him, rather than having to scurry to get everything together.

Honestly though, I have felt so at peace about this since I applied. I know God's in control, and I just gotta keep following His footsteps. Since the beginning I've been saying, "If this is my sacrificing Isaac moment, then I'm willing. But if it is my moment to really give everything, I'm also willing." I'm just going to trust Him, it's easier than freaking out repeatedly over everything. I know from experience!