I love you

You speak it once,
You speak it twice
The three words that i detest

i don't believe it
too many times have i heard those words
only to see the actions out of place,
not in line,
like a knife in my heart
the lie of love cuts me deep to my very core
i think i can love no more

Again You speak those words into my life
Gently, softly, with tenderness

i scream in rage
i know the truth
You can't love me, no one can
for it is I,
it is I,
that has wronged the world

A third time You speak over me,
softly, gently, taking me in Your arms

but i won't have it,
i won't let You near
for You too will find the truth about me
You will learn the secrets of why i can't be loved
then You too will walk out of my life

i can't let You near, do You see?
my heart can't be broken,
the pieces are already scattered so
so stop saying it,
stop speaking it,
You can't love me
I'm hideous You see?

i see You gather the pieces,
the pieces of something familiar,
my heart,
the pieces lost,
broken,
trampled
You gather them together.

i see something that i don't quite understand
something bringing the pieces together again
"what are You doing?
leave me alone,
i can't do anything for You
i can't be anyone for You"

i see a man on a cross breathe His last breath
You reach over with a completed heart in hand
You place it inside me
and say "I love you."

today, here's my heart back to You
all i can say to You is this,
I love You.