a little bit of me..

I remember as I was growing up always thinking, "How do those people do it? How do they read the Bible and pray and never grow tired of God? Doesn't there come a point when you're bored?"
I knew in my heart that there was this great huge God out there, but I had put Him in a box. So He became little in my eyes. I knew His character was love, joy, peace, patience, goodness, faithfulness. He was all these attributes but only on the surface level. And even then I didn't believe it. The Bible was just a bunch of words that screamed at me to be a better person, that told me I would never be enough. I believed in God. I knew about God, but to have a relationship with Him was beyond me.
I pretended for so long that God wasn't in a box, that He really was as big as He is. I pretended that I knew God personally. But I didn't, because I didn't know how to communicate with a God that had given me the Bible full of all these rigid rules and regulations, and set the standard so high that I couldn't seem to reach it.

These past four months have been pretty intense. *smiles* But in these hard months, I have found my reason for living. I have come to recognize that God is not a God of the small box, He is the God of the universe! And He cares so much about every single detail of my life. He loves me so much. He took time to careful intricately design me from the beginning of time. And choose to breathe life into me. (Job 10:8a and Job 33:4) I have come to realize that the Bible is not full of rules and regulations, it's a love letter. It's a reminder of what God has done, so we can see what He will do. He's not too small to handle anything. He is a God of love. And what's more is He's my Daddy. He's my Daddy.

To answer my questions that I had as a child. People can desire God so much because He is not small, He is not in a box, and there are so many levels and so many depths to the attributes of who He is. If I am seeking God daily, I can't get tired of Him, because He is sooooo huge and so vast and so beyond my understanding. And He's my Daddy. He doesn't get boring, because He can't, cause there is sooooo much more to Him. I am so thankful for that. My journey through my life won't be boring unless I stpo seeking Him. My journey will be fun and full of life because He is so fun and big and beyond me!!